Proverbs Thirty One: Thirty

So, I am innocently sitting here reading the updated blogs I follow and start looking at "blogs of note." I start reading this cute blog of a gal from Australia and then go to a link she pasted. It's a site that sells cloth kits so you can sew all these projects and they give you all the "ingredients" necessary. Such a cute site!

So, I was looking at the little kids clothing you can sew, which got me thinking about my newest sewing project I want to try sometime.... These cool, trendy looking, and very functional swaddle blankets, which I've seen at Target. (No stealing ideas you other creative moms I know out there! :)
So, THEN, I see a link for other "parent inventors" and click there. To which I see a Moby Wrap Carrier and remember, THIS is the one that Amber Constant has and is so cool (because I can never remember the name of it). So I was looking at all the great reviews people were giving and thinking that I definitely want one of these next time around (which is funny, because we have a carrier, just not a wrap carrier).
(And, actually, all of this is preceded by a fun 2 hour baby conversation I got to have with Maggie and Sadie tonight...)

And then it hit me! I was looking at all this baby stuff and I felt exactly as I did before I was pregnant with Breyton... Just taken over with awe and excitement of having all this fun stuff and having a tiny beautiful baby to go with it! Which is funny because I now know what having that tiny beautiful baby entails and I still crave it!

Isn't it funny how God allows you to forget certain things so you're willing to do it all again?!

I think it's just been recently that I get really excited about the thought of having another baby... When you take a pregnancy test and are disappointed when it is negative... When you look forward to shopping at Motherhood Maternity again because you see all the new cute spring prego clothes they have in...

But like Sadie said tonight, God does have a way humbling moms through the process of having kids. Like looking at marriage, from the outside you see diamonds and romance and happily-ever-after but in reality, marriage, even though there are times of all of that, it isn't all googly eyes and roses all the time - it won't fill all the voids you expect and want it to. And with babies, they are incredibly sweet and adorable and smell good (most of the time) and fun to dress up but they also are the most work you've ever done 24/7, the least amount of time you've slept in month stretches and the most you've ever worried about someone! (With Breyton, the only person I've probably ever worried about how much they've pooped in a day!) But also one of the smallest things you've ever put so much love into! It is definitely not always a blissful job and some days I wonder if I'm a bad mom because I wish for a moment I could go back to the time when I didn't have a child. But, overall, I wouldn't trade being a mom for anything!

Man, I love babies... And the craze is coming back around. Kind of scary. And, if you're wondering, no, I am not pregnant :)